Have you ever wanted something so bad, it hurts?
Hurts inside you, just for a sec.
Maybe you feel your heart skip a beat?
Or, maybe you catch your breath real quick?
Feel even a little panic-stricken?
FOR ONE SINGLE MOMENT IN TIME?
I have become acutely aware of this feeling lately.
This may sound completely ridiculous, but this is when I feel "it".
When I click on USA Swimming to see if Hannah is still ranked number 2
in the United States for 11 year olds swimming the mile. There are two more months
to go before the final times are recorded.
I want this for her so badly. I want this more than anything I could ever want for myself
And for a minute,
because that is how long this feeling comes over me,
it feels good to feel selfless.
In that one minute,
I am consciously aware of these feelings.
Selflessness is good for the soul.