As a matter of fact,
I am the complete opposite.
I throw everything out.
Sometimes things get thrown out way before
they SHOULD be thrown out even.
Which is one reason I am writing this post.
It is a letter Connor wrote me for Mother's Day this year.
It's a nice handmade card from school, in his very best handwriting,
(cursive!!....not too shabby, for a boy, actually..)
But on this blog I will always have a hard copy of it
I throw away the card.
I've definitely written on here before about how I have struggled
in past with Connor. Not sure if I am being a good enough parent for him.
I worry most about how he is growing up, how he is feeling,
what he is thinking. He is a very difficult kid to read. With him, it is
work for me. I make a concerted effort each and everyday to make him
feel special and unique and to try to tear him away from being the "middle child".
I don't know, I think boys feel it more. Maybe I am wrong.
Anyhoo. It is always reassuring when you know you have scored big time
as a parent. I got proof of that this weekend. As much as I say I love all my kids
equally at all times, I loved Connor just a bit more after getting his note. My heart
was so full just knowing that I have reached a part of him I once thought unreachable.
Here is his letter.
The Best Mom
My Mom is Special! My Mom is special because she makes me eggs when I wake up. I like it when my Mom dances in the car. My Mom can do many things! I think she's best at making me laugh. My mom has a pretty smile! I like to make her smile by doing the robot when we're dancing. My mom is as pretty as a flower. My Mom is smart! She even knows a lot of the math facts I don't know. I love you Mom!
By Connor H.
Through all the challenging aspects of parenting -
"I think she is best at making me laugh"
replaces every agonizing moment I have that I am not doing the right thing.
If at the end of the day, your kids can't laugh with you....WOW...
It's all I could hope for...
LOVE that kid!