Thursday, December 31


The Year of Going Home.
In the literal sense.

This is the scenic drive home everyday, from most places
I've wandered out, so far.
It's a beautiful drive to a beautiful town.
One that my sister and brother-in-law have called home
for a while now. One that I've discovered in a very short time,
is a perfectly wonderful place that they've chosen to raise their family.
I'm lucky to be able to share that with them now.

So this is how I go home.

The bare-ness of the trees, seem less empty
with a little bit of snow sticking to them.
I love how they "canopy" the streets.
It was a good time to come back - to re-learn how to
appreciate this beauty.
The town itself is lined with gorgeous old historical homes.

This is one of my favorites.
It happens to sit right along side of the town green.

Which is exactly where Connor's school is.

Which happens to be right next to Garrin's school.

The drive through the green makes me think that
when the weather is nice, I will be walking through
this part of town, with my husband and kids, and maybe meet up with
our family.... get to the part of town where everyone gathers. I can't wait for that.
One of the things on my to do list.

Just past the green, you approach our street.
Where you know you are almost home,
because the streets are a little less plowed....

And just a short way up is our house on the right.

The grey one with the red shutters
and the American Flag.

And actually, it is the same for all the houses on this street.
You know you are finally home....

....because at each and every house along Greenacre Avenue...

...there are the kids...

...that MAKE it home.

But 2010 will also be The Year of Going Home metaphorically.

I say:

I need this to be the year of just making it a good one.

My theory is that life is what it is.
2009 was just a year.
Another year.
God pretty much dealt me the hand of my life
and I made the most of it.
Some of it was fun.
Some not so fun.

Well all I can ask for is that I continue to
handle my days with honesty, reality, vigor,
hope, strength, and love. That I continue to be me.
That I don't lose myself.
Because I believe one's destiny is based on
how you handle it by just being you.

I have not had any regrets so far.
I would not have changed not even one thing at all.
I've savored every wonderful moment.
I've learned and become stronger from every
less-desirable moment.
While many changes have come into my life
these past few weeks,
I look forward to Chapter 2010.....


Wednesday, December 30

The phone won't stop ringing...

We have been getting so many calls
from all these different magazines lately.

Field and Stream
Hunt Masters
Outdoor Life
Hunt and Fish
Wildfowl Magazine

And we finally decided upon:

Tuesday, December 29

Fourteen reasons

why it's OK that it's fourteen here:

1. My family lives in this frigid arctic place.

2. I can visit them whenever I want.

3. Warming up by a fire in the fireplace is quite lovely.

4. Fireplace tools, I've learned, are quite functional when you
actually use them and not just think they are a decorative item.

5. I don't have to have the ceiling fan running all night on super-extra high,
because I am hot-flashing all night...I can just uncover myself.

6. Remote car explanation necessary.

7. The thought of, when the temperature ISN'T fourteen,
my kids can all walk to and from school.

8. I can dump off let my kids visit their aunts and uncles
whenever they feel like it.

9. I've grown very fond of socks.

10. Sorel explanation necessary.

11. Seeing Bill in an Elmer Fudd fur hat.

12. Discovering it is probably a REALLY good thing that
I can't use my iPhone when I have gloves on ...while I'm driving...

13. Flannel sheets.

14. Did I mention Bill and an Elmer Fudd hat???

Sunday, December 27

The house

Since I am not mentally ready to blog yet -
you know - writing some long drawn out post about my feelings
on the move from hell, how it is to be around family,
the kids adjustment to school and new swim team,
our new neighborhood....yadda yadda....

I thought I'd just keep it real, YO
and post some pictures of the house we are renting.

The closest I will get to letting my feelings show about anything right now...
I will tell you that truthfully, we are really digging the closeness
and coziness of this house. the end. more later.


Some very cool features of this house:

A window seat in the dining room.
Very cool.
And the wood work on the walls - FAB u LOUS!!!

Oh and on the ceiling in that room too.

Pretty built-in - which I have chock full of my shit
lovely decorative items....

Now Hannah, too, has a window seat in her room, with very, very pretty
built-ins. But there is no way in hell I was taking a picture in THAT room yet!

Here is the ceiling in our living room....of which we only have one.
One living room that is.
It is a great room....we actually use it and the working fireplace.
No more flipping a switch for a gas fire for us anymore....
Bill makes us a cozy and REAL fire every night...with REAL wood.

Back to the is a TIN ceiling...very cool.
The kitchen, well it ain't the big one I am used to but it's functional,
and I've come to realize that that is really all I need...
hold on hold on...a little look into the emotional me....
let's get back to the house....

The owner has re-done the kitchen to modernize it a bit - (thank you thank you...)
These are actually the original cabinets - just updated.
Oh, and here is an oldie and a goodie...
Cast iron radiators.
Steam heat.
Now that I constantly enjoy "my own personal summer" everyday...
these suckers get real hot and I feel like I am still in Vegas in July......

Still working on figuring out how to regulate the heat that comes out of these

Here is Lucy's favorite part of the house....
Hardwood Floors.

You ever watch a video of a baby deer just being born,
climbing up onto all fours,
learning how to walk for the very first time?
Wobbly and unstable?

Yeah - that's Lucy walking around the house now.
Poor girl. It's like Figure Skating for Dogs 101,
every day here.
Here is a light fixture that is in our upstairs hallway.
Kinda doesn't feel right putting one of those
new energy efficient bulbs in this...but we are still trying
to save the earth ova' here.
Cute though, isn't it?

All the doors in the house are nice, heavy wood doors.

Some even with paned glass.

glass door knobs.

Now how totally cool is that??

So that's pretty much it in a nutshell.
A little insight into the house we will call home for now.

And I will say...
it was a home
even before all our stuff got here.
And THAT was a great feeling.

Saturday, December 26

Taking a peek

I am slowly but surely making my way back.
Back to checking in -
Phone Calls

Hope you are patient with me.

I need to check back in with myself too.

I've got lots to say,
just little time to say it right now.

In the words of a friend:

LIFE IS GOOD, though.
And that's all that matters to me right now.

Friday, December 25


When you finally reach the light at the end of the tunnel,
in so many different and unique instances,
you begin to see things so much more clearly, don't you think?

Wednesday, December 23

For a dear friend.....

Once upon a time, there was a family of five.
They were extremely busy adjusting to their new life,
in a new town, during the new-ness of an unfamiliar cold winter,
which was much the opposite of what this entire family was used to.

On this one particular frigid morning,
one of the children was busy preparing for his last day of school
before winter break. It was to be an exciting day for him.
Relaxing sort of school day - movies, popcorn, lots of fun..
the kids could even wear pajamas.

Now the occasional "pajama day" was nothing out of the
ordinary for either of the two older children. Such days
were common in their "old" schools, in their "old" town.

So the anxious child, had the night before, picked out the special
pajamas he would wear, got up and excitedly put them on,
headed downstairs for a warm breakfast, before
happily popping popcorn to share with his newfound friends,
for the days festivities.

The parents of these happy children, were a tad stressed out
unpacking feverishly before the Christmas holiday happened upon them.
They wanted the house to be warm and welcoming to those
family members that would visit them on Christmas.

In the hurry and scurry of the morning, time passed quicker than anticipated,
and before they knew it, it was time to get the two olders loaded up,
and take that short jaunt to school in the warmth of their mama's big rig.

With the billowing exhaust from the newly started truck hitting the cold
of the morning, and kids are bundled all up to their eyebrows with
hats and gloves and scarves and jackets,
hearts were beating fast with the thought of each child
being a little bit late to their last day before vacation...

all of sudden out of the mouth of the boy.....


the end

Saturday, December 12


While everything for us right now is new,
the only thing that matters is our NEW niece.
Everything else can wait til later...

Presenting Gabriella Caeli Egan

All our love always to Dennis, Kimmy (who doesn't even look like she gave birth

yesterday.....can you say...BEE-YOTCH!!!!) and their little boy Matthew

on welcoming their crazy beautiful daughter/new baby sister!!

Sunday, November 29

In the words of Tigger......

ta ta for now....

Tonight we are coming off our last and final trip to Disneyland California.
We made it memorable for sure.
Our last trip was our only trip for Christmas.
This was the highlight of the trip, by far.
I realized, we as parents need to take it down a notch....Connor asked Santa
for an X-Box 360.
Yeah, Hannah is laughing ......she asked for a Mac computer.
Well maybe not. Garrin asked for choo-choo trains.
Way to keep it real for Santa, Bud.
Something he can actually make in the toyshop!!!
I bid farewell for now.
Christmas for us will be celebrated this year
surrounded by our whole family
in Massachusetts.

My computer is about ready to be boxed up.
My kids have a few more days of school.
The NV State Swimming Championships over the weekend.
A bit more boxing up to finish after that.
Moving truck comes on the 9th.
One way tickets back east on Dec. 11th.

So I'll catch you up then.

until we meet again

Thursday, November 26

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Mine is going to be great.
Hope yours is too!!

Tuesday, November 24

Being Thankful

Well, I am going to write two lists here.
Here goes....

Things I am thankful for today.

  • my husband - his strength, his insight, his love, his drive, his dedication
  • my kids - their strength, their perseverance, their adaptability, their unbiased love
  • my family - their encouragement, their unconditional love
  • my friends - their support, their unspoken love
  • my hair stylist.....just kidding....
  • my SELF (worth) - being who I am to be able to be find the strength to be thankful

Things, I can only guess, ANONYMOUS is thankful for.

  • That I will be "outta here" in a couple of weeks
  • That they have managed to make my days and nights be overshadowed with thoughts of "what where they thinking sending this kind of a letter to another human being that contained the hateful words written in said letter."
  • That other people that may be friends with them, don't really know what a coward they really are because they didn't SIGN the letter.
  • That they are a master at spinning things to make themselves look like a victim.

So let me just take a sec to set a couple of things straight.

To those that want more details....not gonna get 'em.
I have never, ever specifically "called anyone out" on this blog, by name...EVER.
Not going to do it now. I have never incited specific situations to cause pain
to anybody at any time.

What I have done, is write my blog, when I feel like it, how I feel like it.

It is honest and it is true and happy, sad, mad or is ME.

Don't like it??
Don't fricken read it.
Don't keep coming back.
Don't sit there trying to interpret something you may not know about.
It's not always about YOU.

To've got it all wrong.
I am happy to be moving.
While the specific details leading up to the move may be no ones business but
those I chose, I am moving of my own free will, WITH my husband, WITH my
children and moving back to be WITH my family. (See above - unconditional love)
WITH a smile on my face.

Another thing. ANY role I chose during my 9 years here
has been a role to better the life of someone else. While I have lived a very
fortunate life here - I took my TIME and LOVE and ENERGY and focused it on
swim team, and PTA, and Special Education and soccer
et al. I gave everything I did, my heart. Hence - the boat load of friends I have made.
Most of whom, are STILL my friends, much to your dismay. Much the opposite of
what you "spun" in your letter. I feel sorry for you that you looked upon my
life and all that I gave here as let me quote...(you were so good at it in your letter)
**bringing down families
**stirred up
**leave big wedges
**destroy camaraderie

So as far as your "suggestions":

fix this....fix what?, I ask.
step down...I don't walk away from ANYTHING I have committed to, until it is done

because seriously, if I did, I would have been long gone,
a long time ago.

So don't hold your breath anonymous.
I am done when I say I am done.
Until then - stay away from me,
stay away from my blog,
stay away from my facebook.

And go find someone else you can make dizzy
with all your "spinning".